This is an odd question, but there's a story behind it.
I'm like a little kid, really. I do not like going to bed. Now, don't get me wrong. If I am overly tired, I'll happily go to bed. However, on a typical night I really don't like to go to bed.
Rewind to some years ago.
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Nate: "So, Heidi, you ready for bed yet?"
Silence.
Nate: "Um...do you feel like going to bed?"
Silence with a narrow-eyed stare.
"Heidi?"
"
What?"
"Well...I was getting tired, so I thought we could go to bed...if you want..."
More narrow-eyed staring and then,
Heidi: "I really don't like when you ask me that."
Nate: "HUH?!"
Heidi: "I
do not like going to bed. I'm staying up forever."
Nate: "Okay, then. See you in the morning." And he gets up to leave, which causes me to groan and thrash about like a small child who's trying really hard not to throw an all-out temper tantrum because I really don't want him to go to bed without me. I love him. I just don't want to sleep.
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Fast-forward to tonight.
Nate asked me, "So what are you thinking about bed?" I think he thinks this cute way of phrasing the "bedtime" question will make me want to go to bed. He's been using it for a number of years now.
It doesn't. I stay silent, hoping he'll forget he asked. I start writing this post.
It's now a half hour later and he's asking me again, "So, what about bed?"
I'm fighting my automatic internal (or external) tantrum response and reluctantly going to bed. The day is over. The productive, quiet night is over. I can't
do anything while I'm sleeping, which is such a bummer.
Oh well, I'll get over it.
But I don't have to like it.
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Yes, I have issues. |